Orchid
Signifies beauty
Beauty of strength, refinement
Eloquent perfection
A flower of love
Color, pure, white as snow
With hints of yellow easily ignored
Udo
That was my name, that that meant serene, serenity…peace
So, I was beauty, strength, perfection, love, pure, forgettable,
Serene
Human
An oxymoron of emotions
Twisted
The story starts,
Me
Breathe…sigh of relief…
I have not passed out, consciousness
I have not thrown up, the last bit of my late, scant breakfast
Food
Matter…I am not alone, someone is here
With me
He is here with me
He…comforting me…yes, in his embrace…warm, comforting
He, him…Ore
Drifting…my subconscious, out of my body
My soul, away from the physical
Petrified, shocked
Watching my conscious from above, drifting further away
Slowly into oblivion
Watching my conscious, my body in his arms. His. He. Orekitan.
Gift that never finishes
Memories…laughter
A time of happiness, joy, forgetting…blurred out by time
Him loving me always, comforting me always
Me deserving him never, never had, never will
‘I love you, always have, always will’
Sweet words, dripping like honey from his mouth
Ringing in my ear, like memory verses from a priest’s mouth
Always remembered, never forgotten
Always have, always will
A promise
Of eternity…love
Love never returned
I cannot return this love
NO
I love first…never second
First always
I am broken, damaged
My blood poisoned, my breath labored
Badly used, easily discarded
Worthless, in the face of
So beautiful a creature
I cannot behold his face
Enough!
Enough…the self pity, enough of that
Wake up
My subconscious drifts back…back from oblivion, abyss
Finds my body, lights up my vessel
Comes alive again
Come back…consciousness
At the speed of light…back to reality, the earth
The world…of change
Of opportunities
Back to the arms of love
My love, eternity
Orekitan, mine
Serene…love
Strength…beauty
Orchid